no rush, love effort

This love effort need be still. To stand by and always get ready for you. As my offering is wide and open, I wish you sense my needs and sincerity, need to be near you and be with you. After All you are my inspiration one I Adore Great deal.

I will Give you my hands, as my duty from Universe’s order of expansion of the kindness that you have given them.
I wish you well. And healthy and have more time to share with me

This love is no rush. Unlike other love. This love is understanding of what you’re stand, trying to find out what makes you happy. Coz your time to share with me is a bless, of which I wish I can make you laugh and probably a bliss.

And how kindly youre, to give the time to many.. so many in a day…How your LIFE is tremendous sharing knowledge with other. How I would give you my hands, my eyes as you shared those of yours thousands times with others.. LitteBirdfromEast

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Pieces of My Heart

Now that I have poured the pieces of my heart. Three and this is the fourth.
Two already published and have wishes.
And tomorrow I will meet you
I do hope our meeting will be good, better and great
And I will bow to you
To serve you
In any way I can

I wonder how you are at your personal space
Can you be casual

I feel honor that I have met you
And you wanna meet me
And it feel surreal
Life spans, time, spaces and roads you traveled

Time span
Space span
All those merged in your skin
The Wind
The Sun
The Air
The Breeze
Of Snow
Of Mountain Dew

These pieces of my heart
Left wonder…

31-3-2018

what can I say

What Can I say
I’m disappear, my mind flying
Out at the sky
My body still
I’m all of you

The crazy thing ever
But I believe I have duty
For you, for me and others
Probably as for you, is that the Universe owe you
So they send me to you
As backward pay
To asked you
What is do you want from the Universe
If any
For yourself, you
It can be a earthy thing
Worldly thing
A bit
For all the spiritual acts and done
Has been the part of your whole life
A doer for other

Now
Is there anything that you want?
To do?
To go?
In this life time on earth..

🙂

31-3-2018

The Universe Owe You

What Can I say
I’m disappear, my mind flying
Out at the sky
My body still
I’m all of you

The crazy thing ever
But I believe, I have duty
For you, for me and others
Probably as for you, that the Universe owe you
So they send me to you
As backward pay
To asked you
What it is do you want from the Universe
If any
For yourself, you, only you
Not selfish
neither Selfless
It can be a earthy thing
Worldly thing
A bit
For all the spiritual acts and done
Has been the part of your whole life
A doer for other

Now
Is there anything that you want?
To do?
To go?
In this life time on earth..

31March 2018

Pattern of Love

I like Love
I love to love
I know my pattern of love
Always new person, new path
Yet I feel like I know you
After all you are famous//
It almost always like that
When everybody know you, I dont.
At least not much.
But when I get to know you
Almost nobody knows things about you.
The precious part of you//
I knew you
Your name is familiar as your face
But I don’t know much//
So when I left something
To be part of the collective works
It bring me to you//
I thought I was in love with a different thing.
Never knew it will lead me you
How would I know
I hope you and I will share
Precious moment of being human
To live meaningful life to be a person of with great sharing for advance of human kind…

I wish for you to have everything you ever wish
Everything you always wants
Anything your God provide you on earth. Amin

31maret2018 LittlebirdfromEast

Hati Berkecamuk, Tak ada Erupsi Rasa

Hari-hari ini kegalauan hati cukup menyita bathin. Sepertinya bereaksi dan menimbulkan fenomena diri yang sangat privat namun sedikit menganggu. Semoga segera berlalu.
Sepertinya kegalauan ini juga terjadi karena film yang kutonton yang membuat obsesive feeling karena ceritanya tentang penipuan cinta, seorang yang secara spontan jatuh cinta mencintai lalu ditolak, oleh orang yang dicintai, padahal pada momen-momen intimacy “ada” cinta pada kedua.Cinta yang terwujud dari kata-kata verbal ya atau tidak. Namun dapat dilupakan begitu saja.
Sedih sekali melihatnya.

My wound, Hope it is Heal

I’ve been beaten, broken, bruised and blue by you. The last person I thought will hurting me when I was adoring and loved you. Much. Too much I keep forgiving you. Knowing you, yourself bleeding badly so bad that you didn’t let me be part of your healing. Yet I was part of your healing, and when you healed. You run away, left me.Broken.

What hurt me most was, is that You were comeback. With the new you, the new status of security in person. You already lived in those secure state, yet you chosen it again. You want both, me and a new security. Of course I won’t let you ruined my life again. By letting me in, and pushing me hard out! I never did in my entire life, to curse someone I curse you. You know what, because other person I have love, I never put them into pedestal as you were. Because you were victim of your choice when I met you. Cry, cry and begging for love. Who cannot love you, you were so true in your sorrow and pain. And I am a person with much love within myself and compassion, and pride, and honest. But again it was as usual, the brain that cried, the mind that hurt. So you did not feel you will hurt me by anything you did and didn’t do.

And about a week a go, I met the person, attractive person. I think as always, if I can have one particular person to give my affection as a best friend of lover, it will enough to forget you, forever.

From that moment of my heart hurt by you, the third times, I promise my self, to never TRUST even a kind person, they have the ability to hurt other…and pretend not guilty. the demon in clothes of an angel.

Gundah Gulana Gandrung

Kamu hadir hari-hari ini. Memikirkanmu tanpa berpikir. Kamu datang begitu saja. Sosok wajah. Tertegun sebentar ketika suatu saat ada wajah mirip denganmu di iklan socmed teman. Duh.

Kita tak pernah tahu di acara nan ramai pengunjung akan berjumpa dengan sosok yang masuk ke hati. Hari kemarin kamu. Berkah Minggu. Pernah dulu bertemu, saat itu kamu sudah mampir dihatiku, tapi belum masuk seperti kemarin. Kalau sudah begitu aku akan selalu turuti kata hatiku.

Hatiku ini bukan miliku. Hal-hal baik dari perasaanku tentang seseorang bukanlah dari diriku sendiri. Ada titipanNya. Aku tak tahu apa itu. Titipan dariNya untukmu melalui aku,atau dariNya melalui kamu.

Aku menanti seminggu untuk memverifikasi rasaku. Sederhana, bila seminggu ini kamu mewarnai pikiranku, maka kamu sudah masuk ke hatiku dan belum mau pulang atau pergi. Yang pasti aku membukakan pintu hatiku, kalau tidak mana mungkin kamu masuk.

Aku tidak tahu banyak tentangmu, tetapi biasanya begitu bila aku dapat Tugas dariNya.. entahlah. Aku tertarik padamu..

Semoga ada masa kita berbagi tawa bersama dan mengarungi jalan darat laut udara wujudkan mimpi..

Semoga

2Des,2017 LB

Hapus Kamu

aku ingin hapus kamu. dari memoriku. dari keseluruhan tubuhku, pikiranku semuaku. belum bisa.inilah salah satu faktanya. kau merasuk jiwaku. menyesakkan dadaku. airmata kesedihan kau hadirkan tanpa upaya apapun darimu. kau diam dalam beku yang dingin, dan tajam. hampir mampu menghilangkan kehangatanmu. engkaulah manusia satu-satunya yang menyakiti aku tanpa pernah sadar akan apa yang pernah terjadi. kejahatanmu padaku paripurna. tak akan aku membiarkan orang lain menyentuhku lagi seperti engkau menyentuhku. memintaku dengan tatapanmu, ketika kuberi kau pergi dalam ketakutan dan prasangka.

kau boleh bersinar di luar sana. dipuja puji orang-orang dan dieluk-elukan karena pekerjaanmu. kerja. apapun yang kau lakukan kau bekerja. mendapatkan upah.

aku tak akan menerimamu kecuali kau meminta maaf dan menyadari apa yang kau lakukan padaku adalah kejahatan, kejahatan yang tak termaafkan adalah kejahatan terhadap hati. kejahatan yang tak terlihat, tapi bukan pidana maupun perdata, tetapi memakan korban hati dan jiwa.

aku berupaya menghapusmu, menghapus puisi-puisi cinta yang pernah kutulis untukmu. puisi jujur dan jujur. cinta dan sayang. aku hapus bukan karena menyangkal, bukan karena bohong. namun karena pusi itu ada pada konteks waktu, pada kondisi rasa dan aura. saat itu aku bahagia karena mencintai, sayang padamu. apabila kamu telah terbang dan bahagia. syukurlah. itu yang dulu kau harapkan.

tapi jangan harap aku bisa berbaik lagi padamu, sampai kamu minta maaf. tak ada seorangpun yang pernah kumandikan dengan cinta dan pemberian seperti kepadamu, tapi apa balasanmu. aku tak pernah meminta balasan, tapi sopan santun manusia itu adalah sebaik-baiknya berkomunikasi, berbicara satu sama lain secara jujur.

#masihjahat

Apakah itu kamu lagi?

Oh kekasih masalampau, itu kah kau
Hadir lagi didinihari
Di sepi dan sunyi kota
Usai Hujan sisakan genangan

Oh kekasih hatiku
Bilakah dikau hendak berbagi senja
Saksikan emas matahari beranjak pergi

Kekasih hatiku
Bilakah gelombang rasa jiwaku
Tertangkap antena hatimu

Oh kekasih hatiku
Kiranya jumpa kembali nyata
Dinaungam tawa dan bahagia
Smoga

2-Okt2017
Little Warrior